Fear crept in today. Questions of what if I cannot do enough? What if it’s too much too lose? What if I just can’t? Pretty hard to get work done with those thoughts consuming me. I looked in the mirror tonight and I didn’t see a guy who lost 13 pounds. I was just a fat guy. I have to own this somehow. I need to be able to look in the mirror and know that I’m a guy with flaws. Some flaws I can fix and some I can’t. But I know with this I can work at fixing them. I just have to try.
Last day before rest day tomorrow. I can’t run anymore. I don’t know if it’s because of the circuit training or what but today I could only go 7 minutes. I make up for it with a steeper incline but I won’t stop trying to run. I am going to try walking at faster paces to see if that will help build stamina. We’ll see.
Eggs and toast, banana, an apple
Early Lunch (trying a early and late lunch with around 4 hours in between to stop the constant snacking. I did have carrots and celery in between)
Tuna Salad with Cucumber Ranch, soy and almond nuts,
100 Cal Ritz snack pack, 4 graham crackers, cheerios
Spaghetti with whole grain noodles, tiny container of cookies and cream ice cream
yogurt with granola