I can’t get enough food today. I’m not binging or anything like that but I am not feeling full either. Maybe I didn’t get enough carbs before I did my HIIT this morning but it’s really bugging me. There were a lot of good things about today, some not so good but nothing that I feel emotional about. At least feeling that I’m feeling emotional about. That may have been the worst sentence I’ve ever written. I feel driven. I feel very motivated. I had a great workout this morning and I’m about to do another yoga workout for my evening. It just feels like I can’t get enough of something and I’m using food to fulfill that need. It’s not working.
I’m realizing it’s ok/normal to go through moments like these. I’m doing good with my workouts and sticking to healthy eating. The main thing is not get down about what is happening, but to figure out WHY it’s happening. That opens the door to address the problem. I never knew how much a mental thing this weight loss was going to be and that’s why I’m glad I read “The 4 Day Diet” by Ian K. Smith when I first started out. I didn’t follow the plan he outlined in the book but there was some things that were helpful to figure things out mentally. Second was “Are You Ready?” by Bob Harper which I liked in how he brought it together for me in how to deal with those emotions and then to keep your mind focused on the end result. Whether it’s the long term goal or finishing up an exercise routine. Each action must be planned and performed to the best of my ability. I’m getting all fired up again right now and ready to kick some butt with that workout.
One more thing….. After I posted yesterday I had a great 1 hour workout, showered and left to visit some friends. I wore sandels for fun and was planning on relaxing and enjoying the evening. Wrong! The boys wanted to play soccer so I played in the grass barefoot for 2 hours. More running up and down but having a great time. Bad news. Sores in between the toes and oh was I stiff. But I got my heart rate up and it was a good time for my son and I to play together. Lots of laughing. We’ll have to do it again soon…….with shoes.
No yoga. The wife got a choke coller for the puppy and I went for a 3 mile walk with him. No running, just working at him staying along side of me without pulling away. It was a nice 3 mile walk and he’s starting to get it. Hopefully this calms him down so he’s not peeing all over the place. He obeyed pretty good when we got back and is resting now. We’ll have to try again tomorrow night. I’m glad I went out because it was just beautiful out there. I was going to go on the exercise bike in the morning but I think I’m going to go for the 4 mile run and see if I can run farther than I have before. Time to push myself. Time to be motivated.
Had a great night’s sleep and felt ready to exercise this morning. As I promised myself, I kept to the exercise bike to ease up on the back. That doesn’t mean I didn’t work my butt off. 735 calories burned in 43 minutes. I just love that totally drenched feeling that tells me I put a great effort into the workout. Maybe it’s not the most efficient workout but there is something energizing about working that hard. Another great thing is that my chest strap works with the heart rate monitor built into the exercise bike. I wore my watch at first but after seeing that they were both the same rate and it was easier to follow the display on the bike, I took the watch off.
Eating was good. We had Subway brought in for a work lunch with a vendor and then a great salad tonight. We had grilled a lot of chicken on Sunday and my wife has been great at saving that for me during the week. I did have a yogurt tonight after a mile walk with my boys. I think that walk did me some good as I took in the gorgeous evening and thought about the things I take for granted. I’ve got a great family (pictured below), live a lifestyle that I never thought possible, have an amazing view of nature from the back of our home, I have a great job and hobby that I love to do, and have been given a healthy body that I’m finally figuring out how to take care of. Life is full of blessings, sometimes you just have to take a breath, think about them, and cherish them before they slip out of your hands.
Back is still acting up but I was able to get my HIIT in this morning on the exercise bike. It’s not uncomfortable but the soreness is just there. Tomorrow morning I’m going to go on the treadmill and get some incline walking in. Might be the last exercise for the weekend as we are going away to my parent’s cabin for our anniversary. A well deserved break from it all, especially with what happened today.
We had a couple of inspections done on the house today. The first was a pressure test for the plumbing and that past with no problems. The second was a house inspection and we had a couple of flags come up. I heard about it from work and my stress level went up. We’ve been trying to close on this house for 6 months and it is just crazy how many roadblocks come up. I feel like I’m fighting for my life to get things done and then we wait and wait for others to do there part and then it comes back on us again. After a few phone calls to get our carpenter here and to straighten out some people on why we can’t close on the house on the bills we owe them, I felt some relief. They’ve been sympathetic and understand we’re doing all we can and facing a government system that is just broken. If there was a bag of chips in the house, I don’t know what would have happened to them. So grateful that we had a soccer game to go to and other things that helped get my mind off all the stress of life around this house. I’ll just be glad when it’s over.
It got me thinking about something regarding my exercise. I’ve probably found a lot of comfort with my exercise because it’s something I can control. Something I can do to fix things. Does it fix everything? No. But I see results, in the mirror and on the scale. I’m stronger. It might be why I’m getting more focused with work. Not putting in more hours since there is a cap to the 40 hour week but concentrating on my work. These are something I can control to some degree. It also helps me take a step back and look at this whole house situation. Even with the struggles, I see that we put a great effort into this great house and were able to concentrate on all the details of putting it together. We’re not done yet but it is quite an accomplishment when looking at the big picture.
I struggled today with snacking. At work it was a creamy salsa dip with veggies and tonight it was Lay’s B-B-Q chips. Did I binch? No. Just ate more than I should have. I did great with the sweets, just half of a protein bar after this morning’s workout but the chips got me today. So now the why. I think it’s the house stuff. We’ve been trying to close for the longest time and today we heard that a couple inspections MIGHT get us the loan we really want/need. I’m pretty good at hiding how much this is bugging me on the outside but it got me on the inside today. Pretty sure I kept close to my calories as I missed some of my scheduled snacks due to a busy day and then I made up for it with my exercise. It’s just the idea that I let it take control of me like that. I don’t like that at all.
Workouts felt great today. My muscle workout before the HIIT went really well as I added some harder variants to the mix. For my HIIT I did 8 reps and felt very strong. This evening was a little more difficult. I had the kids tonight while the wife went out with the girls as she most deserves to do after being here all day with them. I thought I could sneak a workout in while they were up but I learned better 5 minutes into it. So I started a little later than I wanted to. I wanted to have Wednesday night be yoga night ( a thank you to my sister, Ingrid, for getting me into this) My butt got kicked the first time I did it 2 weeks ago and we were going to share a DVD with my sister-in-law but it hasn’t come yet. So I burn 700 calories in 42 minutes on the exercise bike. Yes, that is my final calorie count after taking 50 calories off the total. I really sweat good when I work out on that bike. Hopefully we’ll get one of our own when I reach my goals and use that for maintenance. I’ve been told that the treadmill is taking too much abuse from me. =)
Could be the weather or some other personal stuff but I’m in a mood. Pretty close to a depression and my appetite is reflecting it. I now understand the appetite and cravings and able to stay away from them. I skipped out on the ice cream tonight and away from the open bag of chips. Tonight I’ll have the Reese’s Puffs cereal for my 8pm snack and go to bed early again. I hope this weather warms up soon so I can enjoy being outside rather than having my face numb up a little bit from being outside for an hour coaching soccer. Where is this global warming they keep talking about?
Exercise was good this morning. I love working hard on the exercise bike and getting a good sweat. I had to keep in mind not to grab the handles too much because it was making me tense up and I should be trying to relax more. Tomorrow will be day 2 of doing the new cardio and I can’t wait to see how that goes. Have to remind myself to only do 8 reps instead of the 10 that killed me yesterday.