My body is not into it at the moment. I didn’t work out last night. Too tired from some short nights. I did wake up at 5:30 this morning to go for a run but for the first mile and a half I had a hard time pushing myself. It’s like my body was taking too long to wake up. After that I did find my pace and got my heart into a great rate between 140 and 150. While it bothers me to be in the blah time of how my body feels I know it will be temporary and that I just need to push through.
Excited about this weekend as there is a family reunion at my parent’s cabin. Not much exercise planned after this morning’s 4-miler but there will be a lot of activities. We don’t sit around too much (although standing on the dock fishing isn’t too active either) and I’m hoping to get in a lot of moving around with all of the families there. If it’s only old folks that show up then we might be leaving early and let them have their time around the fire together and keep the little ones away.
Have a great weekend.
I can’t get enough food today. I’m not binging or anything like that but I am not feeling full either. Maybe I didn’t get enough carbs before I did my HIIT this morning but it’s really bugging me. There were a lot of good things about today, some not so good but nothing that I feel emotional about. At least feeling that I’m feeling emotional about. That may have been the worst sentence I’ve ever written. I feel driven. I feel very motivated. I had a great workout this morning and I’m about to do another yoga workout for my evening. It just feels like I can’t get enough of something and I’m using food to fulfill that need. It’s not working.
I’m realizing it’s ok/normal to go through moments like these. I’m doing good with my workouts and sticking to healthy eating. The main thing is not get down about what is happening, but to figure out WHY it’s happening. That opens the door to address the problem. I never knew how much a mental thing this weight loss was going to be and that’s why I’m glad I read “The 4 Day Diet” by Ian K. Smith when I first started out. I didn’t follow the plan he outlined in the book but there was some things that were helpful to figure things out mentally. Second was “Are You Ready?” by Bob Harper which I liked in how he brought it together for me in how to deal with those emotions and then to keep your mind focused on the end result. Whether it’s the long term goal or finishing up an exercise routine. Each action must be planned and performed to the best of my ability. I’m getting all fired up again right now and ready to kick some butt with that workout.
One more thing….. After I posted yesterday I had a great 1 hour workout, showered and left to visit some friends. I wore sandels for fun and was planning on relaxing and enjoying the evening. Wrong! The boys wanted to play soccer so I played in the grass barefoot for 2 hours. More running up and down but having a great time. Bad news. Sores in between the toes and oh was I stiff. But I got my heart rate up and it was a good time for my son and I to play together. Lots of laughing. We’ll have to do it again soon…….with shoes.
No yoga. The wife got a choke coller for the puppy and I went for a 3 mile walk with him. No running, just working at him staying along side of me without pulling away. It was a nice 3 mile walk and he’s starting to get it. Hopefully this calms him down so he’s not peeing all over the place. He obeyed pretty good when we got back and is resting now. We’ll have to try again tomorrow night. I’m glad I went out because it was just beautiful out there. I was going to go on the exercise bike in the morning but I think I’m going to go for the 4 mile run and see if I can run farther than I have before. Time to push myself. Time to be motivated.
OK, this is not going to be some diatribe going into how I got stuck in some chore or activity I didn’t want to be a part of. Nor is it about a function I did not want to be a part of. My wife has been doing daycare for about 2 months now with some new kids added within the last two weeks. I was beginning to see a little edginess between the walls of our house and decided she needed to get out. First plan, find one of her friends to take her to a town that’s an hour from here so they can do some shopping and just have some girl time. Everyone had plans. Second plan…….I really hadn’t thought too hard about this…… She mentioned that she thought it might be nice to take the family to this city, Grand Forks, to go for a bike ride. Not exactly what I had in mind. I thought she wanted to get away from the kids but if this is what she wanted, then let’s do it. We borrowed my dad’s pickup, packed up the bikes and away we went. First mental note, buy hitch for our van so we can use my dad’s bike hitch with the van. There was enough room in the back for the kids, actually a lot. But it was a proximity thing. Proximity to each other, they could touch each other and irritate each other versus the not-thought-of-before isolation they have when they are in the van. Then there was the proximity to the parents. It feels like they are right on top of you and they enjoy seeing the reactions they can create in their parents. Funny to them, not so funny to us.
So we get there. This is the point where I realized that I didn’t check to make sure the one nut that needs to be secured for the bike trailer actually is secure. It isn’t. There are no wrenches in this pickup. I will now start referring to this vehicle as mom’s pickup. Ran to the hardware store and bought a crescent wrench for $10. Bike trailer is secure. Better yet, older son’s (Kade) seat is adjusted and he’s ready to cruise. So she gets my bike because it has gears and stuff while I get the bike with one gear because it’s a bike that was given away and I’m cheap. Mental note, need to replace gear cable as a winter project. So we start cruising. Big hill to start with and I’m chugging away and then stop at the top. Where’s the wife? Here she comes finally, complaining that the bike doesn’t fit her right because she has to reach down too far. Cool. You get the one gear bike with the strange noises that sounds like it might snap in half. I’ll cruise.
After that, it went pretty good. Kade made it all the way without stopping (over 10 miles) and it was beautiful outside. When we got done it was after 5 so we decided to get some small hamburgers for the kids and then some meals for us. I had a chicken fajita wrap which was a very good and different taste. I needed some calories too because it had already been a busy day before this trip and I had not eaten enough. We ate in a park and the kids played around afterwards.
Now all are sleeping and I’m ready for a good night’s sleep. I did have a fun time with the family. Particularly when we sat down to eat. My wife told my daughter to sit by her and she said in her 2.8 year old voice, “No, I sit by daddy!” It broke my heart to hear her love for me and feeling for her need for me to be there. A great reminder of one of the many reasons why am I making this change. That moment made all the hardships of the day worth it.
Congratulations to South Beach Steve as his journey continues into onederland and for a year marking a change in his life’s direction. He’s a great encourager to me in the comments and emails he sends my way and an encouragement to follow as he blogs about his dedication to his new life and those he loves most. Make it a great year, Steve.